Saturday, June 18, 2022

Open Letter to Daddy

Dear Daddy,

I want you to know that we need you and we want you.

Sometimes I know she feels trapped.

It's hard for her to move.

She can't do anything but stay beside me. 

Suddenly, she changed and became someone she have never met before.

Sometimes she feels she carries all the loads because she just can't pass it.

She's all I need the most for now - I can't help it.

Her new self requires her to invest more of her - to the point of emptying herself sometimes.

That's why we want to thank you Daddy for investing your time and strength in us.

She really needs you the most during this time Daddy.

She is scared.

She is confused.

She is overwhelmed.

She is tired. 

I know Mommy doesn't hate her newfound self.

In fact, where she is right now is a place she called something beautiful, something so precious. 

She was never been this happy all her life, not until I came and she enters this new place called "motherhood".

It's just that Mommy needs someone who will help her figure out things.

And thank you for being that someone.

Thank you for helping Mommy to embrace her new self for there is no way she can be the same after I grew inside of her and came out from her.

Your support means so much to me and Mommy.

And we thank you for offering your arms and back to us.

You make Mommy feel beautiful more than before.

I know you are proud of Mommy for carrying and delivering me but we also want you to know that without you, we cannot make it through.

Your positivity has a great impact on us.

You shared with mommy's burdens, worries, and fears and assured her that everything is fine and okay because God holds us.

You know that Mommy feels loved whenever you carry me and play with me so you do it even if sometimes all I want is Mommy alone.

Don't be jealous, Daddy.

I also do love you with all that I am.

Please know that she loves it when I laugh because of you. 

It makes her fall in love with you the more.

She appreciates you when you help her stop me from crying and sing me lullabies to sleep.

My smiles, laughter, and touch make mommy's world more than better.

You know it pains mommy seeing me cry, so you always find ways to make me smile.

We feel safe and secure whenever you are with us.

That's why we always want to be with you Daddy - so be used to being with us always.

We don't want you to be away for so long and are always excited whenever you are going home.

I love seeing both of your faces and I love hearing both of your voices.

I want you and mommy to witness my everyday growth and development.

Thank you for sharing mommy's joy by discovering myself - what I love, I hate, what makes me smile, makes me cry, what I can do and what I am fascinated by.

I praise God for you Daddy because I know you are also adjusting to fatherhood and yet you need to be strong for both of us. 

Mommy and I can lean on you while you don't have anyone here physically to lean on - Thankfully you know there is a God who sees us.

He is our ultimate Father, ultimate Protector, and ultimate source of strength.

Whenever it's hard for you to understand Mommy, remember there is the Lord who can give you wisdom whenever you ask for it.

And even if you have made mistakes, I still have confidence in you Daddy because I know you love the LORD ultimately more than us.

And like Jesus, you are gentle and humble at heart.

Indeed, His love has perfected us through Christ Jesus, our Lord.

I am thankful that I was made out of this perfected love of Christ through Mommy and you.

After all, parenthood takes its pattern from God himself because He is love.

This life I have comes from your intimate love with each other as husband and wife and that love ultimately began within God Himself because, in His love, there is life.

Thank you Daddy for being there whenever we need you and we want you.

Please also know that we love you more than so much.


your Baby as spokesperson of Mommy


Saturday, February 19, 2022

GENESIS 28:16, When God intervene

Genesis 28:16
Surely, the Lord is in this place and I did not know it.

This verse reminds me of how God works from the background of our lives.
And we are not always aware of it.

The busyness of this world - the demands of it, the lure of wealth, fame, and power - all these things have shifted our focus and distracted us from the One who truly deserves the credit.

Yet not knowing doesn't equally mean that it is not happening. 

We are in a time where anxiousness, worries, stress, and fear are greater.
We are all scared to meet this virus called Covid 19 yet ultimately it is only God who can hide us from this.

So, If we haven't gotten that Covid, then it's God who is keeping us from it.
And If we have survived that Covid, then it's still Him who has saved us from it.

Behind every victory, every healing, every relief, every okay - It was God who helped us to get through it.

I remember one time when I was so frustrated with my breastmilk production because my baby can't get enough milk supply at that time.
He's crying all the time I was nursing him.
His poops were dry like tiny rocks.
His pee was light reddish and he reached 38+ deg C temperature.
So I broke down one night in our bathroom crying to the Lord to send us some help.
I was so disappointed with myself.
I pitied my baby.

It was Friday night.
I birth my baby Tuesday and went home on Thursday. 
Saturday came - and that's when God intervened.

1st, He sent our two moms to help us and take care of us. Truly, mother knows best.

2nd, I received a message from a friend telling me that she remembered me and would like to send us some Malunggay leaves - which she did with also some fruits with it.

3rd, another friend of mine called me telling me that they will send some gifts to my baby plus I got the chance to share with her the stress I was going through at that time.
And through her, I met a mom who also went through the same sentiments as mine.

These people brought strength and encouragement to me that day.
It's like Friday night I was crying and came Saturday morning - we were rescued.

Help didn't end that day.
One relative also sends me lactation treats!
Indeed, the Lord's help doesn't just make you okay - it also makes you happy. 

Yes, we asked for our moms to come but that friend who gave us Malunggay leaves and fruits, the unexpected call with a gift, that person who gave me advice knowing that I was not the only one who is struggling with breastfeeding and that lactation treats - Those, we did not.

Perhaps it is God - no! it is really God.

If we put it in the Bible times - maybe, the Lord has also sent His angels to them in a dream or in a vision.
Like the stories of king Abimelech to Abraham, Laban to Jacob, King Balak to the Israelites, and Joseph to Mary. 

When Abraham lied about his wife Sarah out of his fear of king Abimelech.
The Lord saved Abraham and Sarah by appearing to Abimelech in a dream and they were freed.

Genesis 20:3
But God came to Abimelech in a dream of the night and said to him, "Behold, you are a deadman because of the woman whom you have taken, for she is married.

Jacob was fleeing from his uncle Laban but Laban was planning to pursue him.
And so the Lord came to Laban in a dream one night telling him not to go against Jacob.

Genesis 22:12
God came to Laban the Aramean in a dream of the night and said to him, "Be careful that you do not speak to Jacob either good or bad."

King Balak attempted to curse the Israelites out of fear that they might also be defeated and conquered.
So he asked Balaam to curse these people but God came to the rescue.
He told Balaam to tell nothing but just blessing to them.

Numbers 22:20
That night God came to Balaam and told him, “Since these men have come for you, get up and go with them. But do only what I tell you to do.”

Joseph planned to back out marrying Mary for she was found pregnant.
So the Lord intervene by sending angel Gabriel to him explaining that Mary was conceived by the Holy Spirit and not by any other man.

Matthew 1:20
As he considered this, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream. “Joseph, son of David,” the angel said, “do not be afraid to take Mary as your wife. For the child within her was conceived by the Holy Spirit.

All these stories tell us that if God is for us then who can be against us (Romans 8:31).

Like Abraham, He can rescue us even if we have already made some bad decisions, big or small.
And even if our past is not good like Jacob's, He does not count it as a basis to whether He will help us or not.

God is so gracious that He will even prevent something to happen just to protect us like when He preserved the Israelites from a battle they didn't even know was coming, from a storm they didn't even know was raging.

Lastly, God will fight for us while we keep silent (Exodus 14:14).
He can defend us while we cannot speak for ourselves like Mary.

God can use many things - His people and even angels to rescue us.
After all, Bible tells us that angels were ministering spirits sent to God's people (Hebrews 1:14).
And indeed, with God, nothing is impossible (Luke 1:37).

Saturday, October 9, 2021

MATTHEW 6:21, Guarding our hearts in a relationship

What a beautiful word to live in.
And who doesn't want a forever with someone?

God did not create any of us to be alone.
He wants us to be in fellowship with others - to be in a harmonious relationship with His creation and of course with Him.

But why do we get hurt?
Why are there broken relationships?
- broken families?

Because hurts, pains, and disappointments are products of this sinful world.
They are inevitable.
There will always be struggles and testings.

So how can we be victorious in this world we are living in?

Here is some Biblical wisdom we can apply.

Open it to the light:

We do not trust ourselves alone to overcome the world's temptation.
We have to have accountability partners - someone we trust, someone we can open with.

For a married individual, it should be none other than our spouse.
We cannot have best friends aside from our spouse opening our hearts to them especially if it is with the opposite sex (this also can be applied to a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship).

We must be careful not to have a one-on-one heart-to-heart talk with the opposite sex - may it be through social media, personal messages, or face-to-face conversation.

We must not give the devil the foothold to destroy our relationship - to take our hearts away from where and whom it should belong.
We can only share our hearts with our spouses because they are our better half.

There should be an open constant communication between a husband and a wife and every issue should be addressed toward one another and not with another party.

Since we are not meant to be alone, we must surround ourselves with people with the same values as ours.
As a married couple, we also should have accountability partners - people who also walk with the Lord and follows Him from a pure heart.
This is where we can seek wisdom that comes with ages and be encouraged with them.
This is where we can learn that every couple is different and God can really work through every marriage.

2 Timothy 2:22
Flee the evil desires of youth and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of pure heart.

It is Satan's lie that we should hide our struggles for the world will judge and condemn us.
That no one will understand us and that we can fight our battle on our own - but life's struggles aren't meant to fight alone.

Do not hide - everyone has their own kind of struggle.

God will not allow us to be tempted beyond what we cannot bear (1 Corinthians 10:13).

Two is better than one but a cord of three strands is not quickly broken (Ecclesiastes 4:9-12).

Luke 11:36
If you are filled with light with no dark corners, then your whole life will be radiant, as though a floodlight were filling you with light.

Do not follow your heart

Human hearts are more deceitful of all things and desperately wicked, Prophet  Jeremiah said.
Who really knows how bad it is?
(Jeremiah 17:9)

That's why the Bible is reminding us to guard it.

Proverbs 4:23
Guard your hearts for everything you do flows from it.

And so we must be careful of the saying "follow your heart"
Because by default, these hearts we have are sinful.

Our hearts are factories of desires.
It always creates, always seeks, always wants, always finds.

We are not sinners because we sin, but we sin because we are sinners.

So are we hopeless now?

Of course not!
Jesus reminded us to be wise enough where to put our time, treasure, and talent.

Matthew 6:21
For wherever your treasure is, there your heart will also be.

This verse did not say,
For wherever your heart is, there your treasure will be.

Because Jesus wants us to direct our hearts.
He doesn't want us to be driven by what our heart feels - by our emotions.

Our hearts are meant to be taught.
We must not go with whatever we feel.

For wherever we put our treasure on that's our attention and focus will be.

Like if we don't feel any love for our spouse or boyfriend/girlfriend like the same way before - we do not easily withdraw from them seeking a new spark, new love.
Instead, we will choose to invest with them -  giving them our time, treasure (gifts), and talent (energy).

After all, Love is more than just a feeling.
Love is a commitment.
Love is not based on a person's behavior
Love is a decision.

Like God, He decided to love us while we were still sinners (Romans 5:8).

Wednesday, September 1, 2021

PHILIPPIANS 4:6-8, When peace and joy made me guilty

Philippians 4:6-8

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything.

Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand.

His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing.

Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable.

Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.

There is so much to fear about out there, so much going on that takes away our joy and peace.
The ongoing wars, calamities, famines, and of course the Covid 19 pandemic and its never-ending variants.

Sometimes, I personally feel that happiness and peace should not be an option because of the problems and destructions going on around.

It seems I am being selfish enjoying this season of my life because of the sufferings and hardships I'm seeing and hearing about - one of these is the Afghan war and the continuous spreading of Covid 19 in our country affecting many people's health, work, and income.

But is it right to be guilty of having joy and peace in such time as this?

I was rebuked by this verse from Philippians being reminded that the guilt I'm feeling is not from the Lord.
In fact, Paul encourages us to be joyful.
Not to worry but pray and think of whatever is praiseworthy.

Do I fear?

- Yes, we are having a baby and I still have no vaccine.

- I fear every time I went to our checkups and whenever my husband goes outside to do some errands.

- I fear whenever my parents and siblings got a cough or cold.

- I fear bad news.

Do I feel sad?

- My heart is broken for the Afghan people.

- I feel sad whenever I received a prayer request about healing and recovery from my friends - even about deaths.

- I feel sad that our families and friends are not witnessing how my baby bump grows.

- I feel sad that I can't see my family and celebrate my upcoming birthday with them.

Am I still happy?

- Yes, because I'm excited for our baby and this season is new for me.

- I'm enjoying being taking care of my husband.

- I enjoy the baby's every movement in my tummy. 

- I love it when my husband also feel and see the baby's movement.

- Seeing our baby's ultrasound makes me happy.

- and I love hearing our Baby's heartbeat.

Am I at peace?

- Sometimes I am not but most of the time yes.

God has comforted and still encouraging me with His words.

I need to be reminded daily and have to feed myself with God's truth and love for me to be at peace.

These verses helped me a lot whenever I don't feel okay,  whenever trouble starting to fill me up, and whenever bad news is robbing me of my peace.

1. Psalm 112:7

They do not fear bad news;

they confidently trust the LORD to care for them.

(Because as I said, I fear bad news, can we just all have good news?)

2. Psalm 121:6-8

The sun will not harm you by day nor the moon by night.

The Lord keeps you from all harm and watches over your life.

The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go, both now and forever.

(As I fear going outside for myself, my husband, and our families)

3. Proverbs 10:24

The fears of the wicked will be fulfilled;

the hopes of the godly granted.

4. Proverbs 10:28

The hopes of the godly results in happiness, but the expectations of the wicked come to nothing.

(Am I wicked? why would "fear" dominate my thoughts? Jesus said worries dominate the thoughts of unbelievers.)

5. Proverbs 31:25

She laughs without fear of the future.

(Laugh and be happy. Enjoy the moment. Joyful are those whose hopes are in the Lord.)

I am not okay all the time.

I think a lot - I overthink a lot.

And the truth is all people will not always be okay and it's okay.

Because it's an opportunity for Jesus - to be seen, to be heard, and to be felt.

Sorrows, pain, tears, sicknesses, wars - and anything negative we could think of is a product of sin.

Anything that hurts us is a part of this imperfect world.

That's why Jesus said that in the new heaven and new earth there will be no more tears - nothing could hurt us anymore.

Revelations 21:4

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.


We shouldn't be surprised if we feel afraid, sad, or worried at times - If we feel trouble or if we wanna cry.

But we shouldn't also feel guilty if we feel joyful and peaceful at times - It means Jesus has taken over our minds and filled our hearts with hopes.

Saturday, June 26, 2021

GENESIS 2:24, Marriage realizations so far

Genesis 2:24 (ESV)
Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh.

It's been more than 9 months now since we started our new life together as husband and wife.

I don't have much to say about marriage in general for now but I do have something to share about what its like to be married with my wonderful- caring husband.

This is just a little realization from a newly married woman and I am no expert at all.

1. Marriage reveals that you don't know your spouse that much.

Before getting married, I and my husband were 10 years of being in a relationship together. 
I thought that was fair enough to say that I know everything about him - that I know him so much - his wants, dislikes, his behavior, hobbies, talents and many more. 

To my surprise, he has a lot of things introduced with me along these past months.
One of it that I'm allowed to share is that he has a lot of "techy things" - from different kinds of cameras to speakers, microphones, headsets, and chargers - even mini fans, lights, and sensors.
I knew that my husband loves technology but I didn't expect that we will have too many wires, cords, and connections in our home.
Honestly, I find his things redundant and messy but at the same time I find him amazing and brilliant that he knows how to operate all of those things.

I know that my husband has his own discoveries about me too but one thing we learn - we cannot change each other's interests and hobbies overnight.
They are part of each other for a long time and as long as it doesn't harm our marriage, we have to accept them and see the good in it.
The reality is that new discoveries can be a source of a fight.
I could be mad at him because in my thought this makes our home looks unorganized but I also learned and am learning that I have to choose my battle wisely and that marriage is not a one-sided relationship.

Philippians 2:3-4 (NASB)
Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others.

2. Marriage gives us no choice but to forgive.

We are not the type of couple who manages to resolve our conflicts easily - our fights when we were still single last for days.
I know it's mainly because of me being the one who finds forgiving too difficult to give.

It was much easier to be in tension before compared to today that we are living under one roof.
I cannot take ignoring and be mad with my husband all day and something inside me is being convicted that I have no choice but to be at peace with him.
After all, marriage has no exit.

They say that the strongest marriage is not made up of people who never made mistakes but with those who always choose to forgive one another.

Forgiveness doesn't mean that we agree with what happened but in reality, forgiveness sets us free from pain.
Personally, forgiveness makes me happy.
When I choose unforgiveness, I realized I am losing the time to laugh with my husband and that I am being a slave to the situation that is causing me pain and disappointment.

I think this is one of the biggest lies Satan has created - that forgiveness only makes the other person happy but not us because we are disregarding what happened - like we are tolerating what they have done.
We usually think that we punish the other party when we choose unforgiveness but actually we are just harming ourselves.

Someone says that unforgiveness destroys the vessel on which it is stored than the vessel on which it is poured.
And to add to this, hurting each other means destroying our marriage and none of us want this to happen.

Proverbs 17:9 (NLT)
Love prospers when a fault is forgiven,
but dwelling on it separates close friends.
Psalm 65:3 (NLT)
Though we are overwhelmed by our sins,
You forgive them all.

3. Loneliness in marriage is still possible.

When the pandemic started, I miss my then-boyfriend (who is now my husband) whenever we are not together.
I feel sad to be away with him.
I wish we were already married before Covid-19 did happen so we are always together.

Though I miss other people too yet nothing can compare to the longing I feel for him those times.

And now that we are married and it still pandemic - I still long for some people.

Yes, I am happy to be with him every day, every night - every moment - but I still feel emotionally sad for some time.
I miss my family.
I also miss being with other people like my friends.

I'm having fun with my life being married to him right now but sometimes I am bored being just us together. 
I wish I could see our families and friends too - freely, whenever we want.

I just realized being with my husband is not enough.
Well, in reality, no one in this world will ever be enough.

I remember this line from a song,
"Nothing in this world will satisfy cause Jesus you're the cup that won't run dry"

When sin entered the world, God left us with a God-shaped vacuum in our hearts.
And these hearts will find no rest until it find it's satisfaction in Him.

John 4:13-14 (NLT)
Jesus replied, “Anyone who drinks this water will soon become thirsty again.
But those who drink the water I give will never be thirsty again.
It becomes a fresh, bubbling spring within them, giving them eternal life.”

Psalm 23:1 (ESV)
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

4. Marriage is not just about sex.

I think everyone looks forward to this after getting married.
After all this a beautiful gift from the Lord exclusively for married couples.

Well, truly, marriage is more than just sex.
There are bills to pay, groceries to buy, dishes to wash, laundries to do, trashes to deal with, and cleaning the house - including the bathroom.
There are also times when we can't think of a new dish to cook and that both of us are too lazy to fix our bed and our clothes in the closet.

There is this reality that we have many things to do other than sex and that this is not also something natural to want or to do every moment of our daily life.

Maybe that is one of the reasons why they say marriage is hard work and that Paul reminded husbands and wives to fill their spouse's sexual needs.

1 Corinthians 7:3-5
The husband should fulfill his wife’s sexual needs,
and the wife should fulfill her husband’s needs.
The wife gives authority over her body to her husband,
and the husband gives authority over his body to his wife.

Do not deprive each other of sexual relations,
unless you both agree to refrain from sexual intimacy for a limited time
so you can give yourselves more completely to prayer.
Afterward, you should come together again
so that Satan won’t be able to tempt you because of your lack of self-control.
Marriage is not only about sexual needs but the totality of physical needs, mental, emotional, and spiritual needs.

Having to enjoy this exclusive gift means husbands and wives have to protect every aspect of their spouse's needs as individuals.

This may include the feel of love and support, confidence, and trust.
Also helping each other in their work, good communication with each other, good conscience before the Lord, purity within their marriage, and so on.

Proverbs 5:15-20 (NLT)
Drink water from your own well —
share your love only with your wife.
Why spill the water of your springs in the streets,
having sex with just anyone?
You should reserve it for yourselves.
Never share it with strangers.

Let your wife be a fountain of blessing for you.
Rejoice in the wife of your youth.
She is a loving deer, a graceful doe.
Let her breasts satisfy you always.
May you always be captivated by her love.
Why be captivated, my son, by an immoral woman,
or fondle the breasts of a promiscuous woman?

I don't have a conclusion to end this because our marriage has just begun and we for sure have a lot to discover yet with this journey.

But apart from Him, we know our journey together will not last - we cannot remain in love.

For God is our only true source of love.

We ultimately believe that happiness in marriage is not possible apart from His design and that marriage is the shape of the gospel (Ephesians 5:21-33).

It pictures how Christ as the husband loves his church, the wife - and how the wives as the church submit to their husbands who mirror Christ.

After all, marriage is not a road to happiness but to holiness for happiness is not the end goal but it is the by-product as we walk with Him.

Ecclesiastes 4:12
Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

Wednesday, March 17, 2021

ROMANS 8:28, One year since lockdown

Isaiah 60:22

When the time is right, I the Lord will make it happen. 

Pandemic isn't a good word. Isn't it?

It brings fear, depression, hopelessness, anxiety, boredom, loneliness, and many more negative feelings we can think of.

For sure this word has brought us some sort of emotional stress that maybe only the Lord knew.

I remember when Covid 19 cases were rising here in the Philippines as our wedding day approaches, I was so anxious.

I am confused about whether I want to hasten time to the day of our wedding or to stop time to make the virus stop spreading.

Well, pause.

In this blog, I will not highlight the personal drama I have gone through during that period. 😄

I'm done with it, Praise God! 😊

I wanna highlight how really the Lord turned something negative into such praise-worthy things!


Our families on our wedding day

The wedding might be postponed but I got the chance to spent more time with my family - 6 more months with them.

Before getting married, I was so excited to be with my husband now.

We've been for 10 years together and for me, 10 years is more than enough of waiting for both of us.

But looking back I am so grateful God extended our waiting because I am missing my family from time to time.

I miss the life with my parents and my siblings though I am completely happy with my husband right now.

I realized that my life has really a new chapter now.

I'm absorbing the fact that I cannot go back to the time when I was still under my parents' ultimate care, - less freedom but less responsibility.

But yes, the postponed wedding is not ultimately a bad thing.

I treasure those postponed periods with my first love - my family.


Have you heard the word "ArTherapy"?

I was not so serious with calligraphy before. I just do it from time to time whenever my feeling calls me to.

But boredom strikes and I needed to do things that time to divert my attention not to stay from the emotional and mental stress I think I was going through.

That's when I started to join the #30daysofBibleLetteringChallenge where I will write bible verses for 30 days.

Day 1/30

This was the point where I got the chance to know some artists.

And as I was connecting with them, I was encouraged to explore art more - like painting florals, landscapes, coffees, bread, humans, and many more.

I almost painted every day until one day, God has impressed some people's hearts to appreciate it by giving me the chance to make art for them - and I'm getting paid for it!

My first ever orders!

Not only that, since I wasn't able to go outside to buy my journaling stuff for my quiet time.

I was pushed to make my own stickers, pure hand-made first but now we are printing it 😊

My first ever hand-made stickers!

Now from painted to printed :)

Have my own Lazada store now :)

I remember when He said to Come to Him and He will show great and mighty things which we do not know (Jeremiah 33:3)

After a year I can say that God has blessed the work of my hands more than I could think of.

It overwhelms me to think that He has brought me here where I am right now.

He has opened doors and still unwrapping things in store for us.

To conclude, 

Who would have thought there is beauty in ashes?

Leviticus 26:35

As long as the land lies in RUINS, it will ENJOY the rest you never allowed it to take...

Leviticus 26:43

For the land must be ABANDONED to ENJOY its years of Sabbath rest as it lies DESSERTED.

How ironic these verses are right?

Ruined, Abandoned, Desserted - who would enjoy such things as these?

But yes, with God - We can. We will.

We might not see it at the moment, but in time, we will understand.

We will appreciate all that He is doing.

Be encouraged.

To us who might be going through this tough season - Believe that God can turn things up.

We will not forever feel deserted or abandoned, there is a reason why God is allowing us to experience such things for a reason that we cannot comprehend right now.

Romans 8:28

And we KNOW that God causes all things to work together for GOOD to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

Wednesday, December 30, 2020

2 CORINTHIANS 4:8-9, Thank you God for 2020

Many will say that 2020 is not the best year or the best way to start a new decade.

Maybe I'm one of them too - at least in the beginning.

But ending the year...

With tears, I feel grateful.

God is really, really faithful.

I remember entering 2020 with full of excitement in me for my thought says, "this year will be different".

I wonder how it feels to have a new chapter in life with the only man I have ever prayed of.

But then COVID 19 happens and it crushed many things - well my dream wedding.

Yes, it seems that my dream wedding covers that "many things" at least for my perspective.

It's like our wedding is my "everything" for that year.

That having a good and wonderful wedding means a happy and perfect 2020 for me.

Not knowing God has in store something far better for me this year.

Early this year, I wrote a blog for valentines entitled "When God brought the woman to the man"


I can say this is my biggest break so far as a writer.

Then when Covid 19 break out last March, it moved me to write my so-called "Covid 19 Series" which reached many people too.

COVID 19 - 1

COVID 19- 2

COVID 19- 3

In April of this year, I started to paint almost every day to cope with the feelings the lockdown has brought me.

I posted my artworks on social media and to my surprise God has sent people who have appreciated and liked them.

Some even asked me to paint for them and that's how I started to earn from it.

September came, who would have thought we will get married - not our way but His way.


November, God has blessed my heart by giving me the opportunity to host an art workshop for the first time!

Then later this year, I have launched my own sticker sets!

- Not only stickers but also cards, tags, calendars, and other customized artsy things. 

I have not thought any of this will come true this year.

My focus is only on that dream wedding but God took my attention by some turn of events.

2020 might have brought me heartbreaks, disappointments, anxiety, doubts, fear, and many negative feelings but I'm still here.

By the grace of God, I'm still here in my faith.

2 Corinthians 4:8-9

We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed but not despairing; persecuted but not forsaken; struck down but not destroyed.

I realized, maybe we have had a lot of hardship this year and it feels this world is against us - well that is normal.

Jesus reminded us that if it feels that the world hates us, It hated him first (John 15:18)

And if we continue to read 2 Corinthians, in verse 10-11, it says,

Always carrying about in the body the dying of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. For we who live are constantly being delivered over to death so that the life of Jesus may be manifested in our mortal flesh.

We know Jesus did not live the life of pleasure this world defines.

He was betrayed, denied, mocked, scourged, nailed, and crucified - yet in all of these, He is victorious!

He has won the greatest enemy no one has ever defeated which is death.

So to us, Cheers!

God has accomplished all His good plans for us this year - His way, His time.

He is indeed not a man that He should lie for He cannot deny Himself.

God did not just give me the marriage He has promised but in His goodness and grace, He brought me blessing more than I have asked for this year.

2 Corinthians 2:14

But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumph in Christ and manifest through us the sweet aroma of the knowledge of Him in every place.

May this sweet aroma of Christ be upon you.

Happy almost New Year!


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